Text of the Week - I met a real angel

Send to: Cupcake	2011-10-22 00:53	… I met a real angel on Wednesday. For real. Like I think I was talking to a person that no one else could see. It was like a movie.
Send to: Cupcake	2011-10-22 00:54	This is not the weed talking. Trust me.
Received from: Cupcake	2011-10-22 00:54	Whatttt!!!
Send to: Cupcake	2011-10-22 00:55	Yes. I think so. It was right after I got the news.
Received from: Cupcake	2011-10-22 00:56	What did the angel say?
Send to: Cupcake	2011-10-22 00:59	He held my hand. And then said he felt a lot of energy coming from me. He said he was from Switzerland. And that it was a beautiful place. Then he said I was lovely.
Send to: Cupcake	2011-10-22 01:00	His weird dialogue made me feel warm and comforted. I then cried like I was in church to the point where the bartender got nervous and asked me if I was ok.
Send to: Cupcake	2011-10-22 01:01	She (the bartender) talked to me like this guy wasn't even standing there already holding my hand. She didn't see him I know she didn't.
Send to: Cupcake	2011-10-22 01:02	I grabbed my food and purse to leave and when I turned around he was completely gone.
Received from: Cupcake	2011-10-22 01:03	Oh.. wow..that is really an experience.
Send to: Cupcake	2011-10-22 01:04	What do u think? To weird. I know right.
Received from: Cupcake	2011-10-22 01:05	What do you make of it all
Received from: Cupcake	2011-10-22 01:07	No not weird
Received from: Cupcake	2011-10-22 01:08	Things happen to us we can't explain
Send to: Cupcake	2011-10-22 01:08	Let me describe what he looked like. He was a white older man, like in his 80s but amazingly healthily looking. White hair and skin like butter. Only slightly wrinkled. And when I touched his hand it felt like a babies hand
Send to: Cupcake	2011-10-22 01:09	Everything about him seemed so honest and pure.
Send to: Cupcake	2011-10-22 01:11	I think it means that I'm special and I'm going to be ok...like god is going to protect me.
Received from: Cupcake	2011-10-22 01:12	I agree...u r special..you met ur guardian angel
Send to: Cupcake	2011-10-22 01:15	Have you ever met a white man older than 40 with skin like butter?
Received from: Cupcake	2011-10-22 01:16	No not yet.
Send to: Cupcake	2011-10-22 01:16	My point exactly. I don't think they exist. Well anyway. Enough txtn. U good?

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The Quest for Love and Self, Part I

[Excerpt from Volume One - Summer 2011]

It’s probably fair to say that my adult life began upon graduation from undergraduate school.  While I didn’t go to college to get my “MRS.” like so many other girls do, I did have a boyfriend in my senior year who wanted to marry me. Looking forward to my adult hood I was on the fast track to success.  I had excelled in school. I already had a good job before graduation and the next thing for me to do was to get married and settle down. This man that I was dating was as qualified as any. He was cute, funny, smart, and employed. I had completely bought into the notion that while women could be smart and have jobs too; they really should aspire to be wives. Good wives. It was the quasi-independence of womanhood in the status quo. So when the opportunity presented itself to me, I grabbed it. By those terms I was ultra-successful – married by the October after my May graduation.

I knew the first year of my marriage that I had made a terrible mistake. The man that was so attracted to me for my brains, sex appeal, independence and wittiness had somehow convinced me that in order to be the perfect wife I needed to be completely submissive; I needed to worship him; I didn’t need to spend time with my girlfriends because I supposedly loved him, not my girlfriends; that freakiness was not Godly or acceptable in a Christian marriage; and that I shouldn’t do anything or go anywhere without checking with him first and gaining his approval. In fact he didn’t want me to use my brain at all.

This was my first real experience in a relationship. I married nearly 16 years ago. To this day I don’t know if I was ever in love or if he ever loved me. I was infatuated with the concept of marriage and being a wife. Because of this I allowed this man to manipulate me and control me. Why, oh why was I such an overachiever? Jokingly today I call what I was in, a merger not a marriage. This was one accomplishment for which I wish I never aspired. I was so caught up with being a wife that I forgot to be me – that I forgot how to be me.

Before I said “I do,” I was very outgoing. I had many friends and enjoyed being social and meeting people. I was involved in many extracurricular activities and sports teams. I went to most of the big parties on the various college campuses in the area. And I had a few boyfriends that chased me hard and fast throughout college. I had achieved everything I had set out to do. Goal setting and accomplishing those goals came easy to me. I attended most of my classes in college and finished undergrad with a B average. I had applied for my first job and started working even before graduation. More importantly I was never a follower. I was a leader and everyone else followed me.

This was who I was and I never gave much thought to it. Maybe I should have, because no one ever challenged me or tried to change me. So when my husband set out to do just that- I didn’t recognize the behavior.

To be continued...

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